jangilang’s webcam video April 22, 2011 04:48 AM
Starting a new chapter in life! Wish me luck! ha!
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jangilang’s webcam video April 22, 2011 04:48 AM
Oh thank GOD you are ok! How scary! I’d be freaking out, too. That kind of scare is really close to home with you, because of your Father in Law. I’m so glad your sweet doctor was there to help you, honey. You were a great Daughter to him… you blessed him! It’s Satan that is putting all that garbage into your head! This was God’s timing, and we have no control of that, for sure… You were a light in his life and will be blessed for that, honey.
God Bless
Wow, I really learned a lot here. I’m sure it’s tough but I think if I know you the way I think I know you, you will pull pull through this. You have a great family and YouTube friends who love and support you. My Dad died 10 years ago and before he died, he gave me his Silverado truck and to this day, I feel him riding with me whereever I go and looks out for me when I drive. My wife Diane has Cancer and had chemo and so far so good. Hang in there hun, love you
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Thank you so much and yes i have been cancer free for 6 years now.
I was driving my Dad home from the hospital when he died beside me. There was nothing that could be done. But I still feel I could have done something.
@greggfla Thank you thank you thank you! You are truly one of the sweetest and most kindest that Ive ever met through this place! Your comment is so meaningful and sincere and for that im so appreciative! You are so right, he is no longer suffering and i know he is in a beautiful place with Our Lord. Im just gonna have to get over this… Im looking forward to getting back to my old self, i was sorta fun back then! ha! thank you honey, it means so much to me! <3ya!
@justwant2bhappy —person inside and out! your words have meant so much to me! im so very sorry for the loss of your dad! please say a prayer for me! thank you again for your sweetness! sending big hugs right back atcha! <3ya bunches!
@justwant2bhappy — no mom, thats not what you have! youre fine! i am being tormented for some reason and im not understanding why?
my father in law pulled every breath he took, it took so much outta him to breathe and he suffered daily too. I do want to quit smoking, i have the patch. please pray that i will gain the strength to put it on and put the cigs down. you are so right about everything! i hope you know how much i truly appreciate you! you are a brilliant woman! and a beautiful—
@justwant2bhappy I think you are right! I have been completely on a different planet since the doc visit the other day! satan is after me, when i pray he interjects viciously. just yesterday here i am feeling absolutely almost happy and i run into a friend whose mother just beat cancer for the second time, i asked where it was and she replied “in a node in her neck, side of the throat!”… i began to panic and wonder if that has been my problem and they over looked it! my poor son said—-
Babe, you must stop feeling guilty..and if you cant then please ask God to forgive you and accept that you ARE forgiven and then Ashli, let him go…Your father in law’s memory will keep you close to him until you go to see him. If you dont do this you will make yourself ill with guilt..probably why u always think u have serious illnesses, cos you feel u shld b punished..U did nothin wrong babe
Let him go and forgive urself..
love you
ps u look lovely
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@TheSchwartzcaster awww and I would LOVE it! Thank you so much for your sweet comment! <3 <3 <3ya!
@dreamer72fem Thank you so much for your kindness stacey! You are so beautiful inside and out ! <3 <3 <3ya!
@moomay1949 and theres where my guilt is from!
you are so sweet and i do appreciate your kindness! im keeping you in my prayers, youre a beautiful person inside and out and i want you to be ok!
love ya!!! <3
@moomay1949 had died at least 15 minutes before i found him. i asked doctors than why did i feel his pulse racing in his neck during cpr? they said it was my compressing his chest that caused it…it was me, not him! its been a complete nightmare for me! he was truly one of a kind and my very best friend! im thankful to God he is not gasping for breath any longer or rolling around in a chair at everyone elses mercy! im sorry i went into great detail with this, its just been awful for me! —
@moomay1949 –i worked on him like a dog until the emts got there which took forever, i just knew theyd fix him… when they got there the machine said not to shock him so i leaped up and did crappy cpr on him again until they yanked me off… they were standing around while he lay in my floor- they were talking about their weekend plans in front of all of us in panic! instead of hopping in the emt truck with him due to my denial i hopped in the shower, my husband called me saying that dad
@moomay1949 –chair. and i found him slumped out of it into the floor. his cigarette had just been put out maybe by 10 minutes. i flipped him over and cut his lil toe nearly off from the corner of his metal framed bed so there was blood everywhere. i was screaming and could hardly breathe, i begged him to hold on just a sec cause we were to go fishing like we planned that friday…i started mouth to mouth and tasted his breath, felt his pulse racing in his neck and thought he would make it..i-
@moomay1949 aww youre too kind!
are you ok? were you in the hospital a long time or a short visit?
i know, ive had so many doctors tell me his heart stopped…i could not have saved him anyway, but in my mind i believe i could have. he had died medically 10 times before this in 5 yrs. the night before he told me the 11th will take him, i laughed and said ” no way, youre kickin the grim reapers ass”…and to wake up to what i saw was devistating! he had been waiting for me in his wheel-
@BostonChickie I pray for you all the time, too! I know you are going through some ruff stuff right now. i want it to be easier for you. sending you big hugs right back! <3ya!
@whatifyable You are so right! I do however wish i could have told him how much i loved him, my mom said that she had talked with him all day the monday the week he died, they talked about everything including the role he played in my life and how much i loved him. which makes me feel better i just hope he knows how much i truly loved him, he was everything to me! thank you for your kind words, i appreciate you so much! i look forward to the me i used to be! <3 <3 <3ya!
@TomSawyerLush You are truly an amazing young man… i wish i could share with your parents how fabulous i think you are! they have raised an amazing guy! you always say the smartest and most helpful things and for that i very much appreciate you to the core! i hope you know this! i love ya sweetness! thank you! <3 <3 <3
@longcara awww Cara, thank you so very much! you are beautiful inside and out! Ive always thought so, im flattered by your kind words! big hugs your way! <3 <3 <3
@SugarInHisBlood awww big hugs to you sweet boy! I do appreciate your sweetness! I cannot wait to be back to MY normal again…ha! i was crazy in a fun way, these days ive just been shock treatment crazy, now thats crazy! ha! ur too sweet! <3 <3 <3ya!
@LadyLisa513 I am so sorry for you… I am so sorry that in the middle of your own battle that you lost your mom. I believe you must be a pretty amazing person to have withstood such trauma…aw my heart aches for you! Are you better now? Im praying for you… thank you for your kind words, i so appreciate you! <3 <3 <3
@Freeboy2124 Thank you sweet boy! I so appreciate your kindness! You are so right! Now my father in law is not pulling for every breath and he is standing on two legs. I do thank you so much for your sweet comment! i love you for your kindness! <3 <3 <3
@truckingsonofagun there is nothing wrong with a trailor. its been our home on and off for many years. warren in 2005 i left my husband and i ran to florida with my kids and bought an old rv. we lived in it for many months before my husband and i got back together, my kids still say how they miss that place. home is what you make of it! there is nothing wrong with trailors i just couldnt stand that person always calling me trailor park..it pissed me off! ha! <3ya
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